Baiju Bhatt20:35
So, grew up in Alabama and then in southern Virginia and I guess I was grown up by the time I got to college. [snorts] So my family moves to the US from India. Uh my dad had grown up always wanting to study physics. So it's like his life goal. He wanted to study physics. Um and they're from a little town, I guess now it's a big town in India called uh called Babnager in Gujarat. And my dad, my grandfather was one of the first western trained eye doctors. No kidding. This has got to be in like probably the 40s and 50s and 60s. It was one of the first western trained eye doctors and was like my children are going to go into optometry. So this is like my dad and his and his brothers. So my dad had always wanted to study physics goes to college to study chemistry I want to say. I think he started a PhD in chemistry in India um and then stops doing that and is an optometrist. He's like a contact lens doctor in India applying to PhD programs in America because he wanted to study physics. And the the story that my dad tells me is that he ch he put the word kumar at the end of his name which apparently means you're a bachelor cuz he was like I'm going to devote my life to science. Um my dad is like a very he's a very studious man. Um, and I love him. But lo and behold, my dad, I think eventually was like, 'All right, I'm going to get married.' I think he was I I yeah, I think he was maybe like, 'All right, maybe this coming to America to study physics thinging isn't going to happen.' So, he gets married to my mom and then she's pregnant with me and then he gets into University of Huntsville, Alabama to study physics. And my mom originally I think was not gonna come. She's like she was the youngest of a bunch of siblings. She really loved her family in India. And the story that they told me is that they go to the embassy in India and my mom is pregnant with me. And they're like oh your son you've got you're pregnant right? And they're like your son's going to be born in America. So my mom to her frustration sorry this is going back a little bit further but I think it's no this is cool pretty relevant. She comes to America and we grow up. So when she first lands in America, she's in Huntsville or sorry, yeah, uh yeah, Huntsville, Alabama. Yeah, that's where my dad was studying physics. And I think they knew like one Indian family in America that were also doctors that were in Warrenburg, Missouri, right around where I grew up. Yeah. And [clears throat] so my mom, the story goes, she goes out to Warrenburg right when she's about to give birth to me because you can't afford to go to the hospital for like a week, right? So she goes there, I'm born, and then she comes back to Alabama, which is where I grew up. Wow. It was uh That's cool, man. You still tied with both your parents? Yeah. Yeah, very much so. Did you say your dad in the 40s or in his 40s? No, when when my grandfather studied. Oh, okay. Which must have been in the 40s or 50s in India. Okay. I was maybe maybe it was 50s or 60s. No, he's he was born in the 40s. Okay. He wasn't in his 40s in the 40s. [laughter] Right. Right on. [clears throat] Well, what were you into? What were you into growing up?
Yeah. So my childhood was I had a really loving family, but the circumstances were I think objectively pretty tough a lot of times. So um so this is like one of the pretty heavy duty things that happened in my life at a pretty young age. My dad's kidneys failed pretty much. I think it probably started around the time he came to the US. Um, and so by the time I was four or five, my dad had to stop out of his PhD program to get a job to pay for the medical bills. So here we are moving to um a little town called Picosen, Virginia um next to Langley Air Force Base cuz my dad got a job at NASA Langley. And I think one of the big things for him was he's like, I have to get a job to pay for these medical bills. Cuz he started going on diialysis when I was damn when I was like 5 years old. So there I was only child like not a lot of brown people around southern. [laughter] Uh yeah. And actually interestingly I didn't learn English until I was like maybe four or five. No kidding. Yeah. I learned Gujarati was my first language. Um cuz my mom didn't speak English. We learned English together. I learned English watching TV. Wow. Yeah. Um so that was kind of who I was as a kid when we got to Virginia. So what was I into as a kid? Really into superheroes. I was really into like cartoons and X-Men and comic books and stuff like that. Um, I was also really into science and space and that a lot of that came from my dad because he worked at NASA. That's cool. Like what does your dad do? He's a scientist at NASA. It was something that I was always really proud of and I thought was very cool. And I remember I would go to visit my dad at work sometimes. And have you been to Langley Air Force Base? No. Yeah. There's these huge wind tunnels, right, that are kind of on the facility. And I remember going there as a kid and just being sort of aruck by the machinery of like science and space, right? And like how big it was. And I remember my dad had this he had like a desktop computer and he was doing computer stuff on I think he was using Linux in like the '9s. So I remember distinctly remember going and like my dad had his computer at his desk. Um so that was a lot of my childhood. I mean, I grew up not being a terribly athletic kid. I was actually quite overweight as a child. Um, you were overweight? Big time. No kidding. Yeah. Um, I ended up losing a ton of weight when I got a little bit older. Um, like I lost like nearly a third of my body weight in high school. Wow. Yeah. From exercising. Just Oh, okay. And so that that was kind of my childhood, right? We were not terribly wellto-do. We lived in like a small apartment. My dad was a scientist at NASA. He was on diialysis. Um I was I was a little kid, you know, I was like a little little boy. And the interesting the point at which my life fundamentally changed was when I was in 8th grade actually and my dad had been on diialysis this whole time and was waiting to get a kidney transplant like waiting year in year out. I remember he had this little beeper that he would carry around with him just like oh did the beeper go off? cuz if the beeper went off, it meant that one of the hospitals called because they had a kidney transplant for him and you got to like pack up and go. And um when I was in 8th grade, my dad's kidney disease kind of took a turn for the worse. So, he was on diialysis and he got this infection and I don't think they really understood what was happening at the time, but he got very very sick from the catheter that that was in his stomach basically for him to be able to do diialysis. And [sighs and gasps] my dad goes from being sick to being very sick to being hospitalized to my mom being like every day waking up in the morning and going and staying with my dad at the hospital all day. And I was just kind of like home alone just [__] confused. Damn. Being like what what do I what do I do, right? like where where does life go from here? Feels completely rudderless. Didn't have any siblings, right? I was not cool at all. I was like fat brown kid in school. Like there wasn't a lot of I had a couple of friends. Um actually one good friend from that period that's still a friend of mine. Uh but I just remember feeling so unbelievably lost. And then my dad's health continues to take a turn for the worse and he has a couple of really major surgeries where you know at this at at 13 or whatever it was I remember staring down the spectre of what happens if my dad passes away. By the way my dad is healthy and alive today. So probably worth worth saying that. I'm like what happens right? I don't want to go back to India. I've never lived there. My parents couldn't even afford to go back to India. Um, the last, by the way, the last time I went back to India was in 1997, maybe 98. It was Did you go back? Did you Is that like the only time you went back to India or I think Did you go back and forth a couple times? Probably when I was a little kid. I went like two or three times. You don't remember it? Vague memories of it, but I I'm I'm an American, right? like um through and through. So that that that's happening and I'm like, well, what do I do? Right? And I don't feel like I can control anything in my life. But growing up in my household, it was like this this is this theme will come back a little bit later on, right? Is like you have to make the most of the opportunities in life. And America is the land of opportunity. And my dad did beat one thing into my head, which is education, education, education. like that's your way out. So, I go from not being a terribly good student to being like I'm gonna get really good at math. I'm gonna get really good at physics because no matter what like that's like that'll give me some purpose in life and if I'm doing really well in school that that'll be kind of like the thing that pulls me forward. Um, lo and behold, a few months later, my dad, his kidney, that like kidney disease that he had that had him hospitalized, which I'm talking about it kind of vaguely cuz I don't think they really know what happened other than the fact that he had a really bad infection. Mhm. He starts to get better and they're like, 'Give this man a kidney transplant.' Like, he's been on death store. Um, and so he gets a kidney transplant. By the time that happens, which is I think the somewhere between 8th and ninth grade for me, I was like a full-on man at that point cuz I'm like, I have to do well in school, like that's my mission in life. And if I do really well in school, that's going to be how I like carve my own path out cuz I didn't want to feel rudderless anymore. Wanted some degree of agency, some control over my life. And so I go from being not a very good student to being just locked in. Wow. And just at that point like figured out that I loved physics. I loved math. I'd kind of been given this gift of being introduced to this as a kid by my dad, right? And this one of the interesting things growing up, right, is like doing well in school or studying math and stuff like this. this was not cool when we were kids, right? Like you're kind of a loser if you did stuff like this. Um, which I think is not a good thing. Like I don't I don't think that's that's a weird and bad thing for society to reinforce. Like we want our young people to cherish education cuz otherwise they're not going to know what the [__] they're talking about. Right? Like that's what that era of life is about is about learning stuff so that you have a better lens to look at like this weird thing called adulthood and life through. Uh so