Expressive language delay as an adult-my story

No script. I'm going to do the same thing so you could see what I actually sound like. Now keep in mind, if you're comparing yourself to me, I have done over 200 videos and many speeches. I do sound a lot better now than when I did three years ago. And you might be saying to yourself, you don't sound too good. I know, but I just don't want you to compare yourself to me. I'm going to go over with you my story in hopes that it may help you. Basically, I was only diagnosed with expressive language delay about seven years ago. And before that, some of the time I had no idea that I... maybe they thought I was done talking and I wasn't done talking. That would happen. I had to say something before I started talking: please don't interrupt me before I finish my thought. I thought for a while I just sounded kind of normal because I never took the time to record myself and listen to it back, unless I was doing a real estate listing because I'm a realtor. Then I would record myself. Other than that, I really had no idea what I really sounded like. So occasionally people would say there are long pauses between your thoughts and ideas. And I knew this. If someone asked me a question, I could only give a short... got my turn to talk, so I never really said anything. If I did get a turn to talk, I would just say something really short. So I never actually contributed much to any group conversations. This was very frustrating for me, having this problem talking. And I wanted to do something about it. I wanted to talk better. And what I did is I did something probably kind of unusual that most people in my situation would never do. I took the advice of what someone said to me because I said to her, I want to talk better. I joined an organization called... then I could definitely talk better to somebody one-on-one or in small groups. That was my thought. I get there and of course I'm really bad. I can't hardly do it at all. I keep on going though. And then there's a part where I had a hard time doing the speeches, five to seven minute speeches, and even harder time doing the evaluations where you get up there and evaluate somebody. Because the only thing you could do is just take notes, and then you have to get up there and do an evaluation. I'm totally unrehearsed now. I think that's probably hard for anybody, but if you have expressive language... and that was that. I learned because there was one speech which I took really seriously, and that was a humorous speaking contest speech because I was always pretty funny. So I took that one seriously. I filmed myself during practice, and I would practice, watch it back, practice, watch it back, over and over again until a point where I was pretty good. And I realized that was the key to my getting better. But I didn't do it except for that one time because it just seemed so hard. I'd have to practice hour after hour after hour after hour... away I figured it's impossible, I can't do it. Well, I wound up quitting. Now I've never done a video like this totally unrehearsed, one take. So if you like this video, if you like this style, please let me know in the comment section. I'm not going to go any longer with a story until I know if anyone really likes this style, if anybody's going to watch this. And if so, and if you let me know in the comments section, I'll go on with a second part of the story, which takes you from my point in quitting Toastmasters to the present day. Thank you for watching. Oh, and if you like this video, smash the...