James Whitehurst7:45
Oh, well, the thing you just really don't appreciate is that when there's no one behind the curtain, there is just an enormous amount more focus and attention on you and stress associated with that. So I thought, 'Oh, I've had 80,000 people working for me at Delta. I ran a company through a bankruptcy, drove all the day-to-day, and so therefore, I could be the CEO of Red Hat,' which at the time was a much smaller company. And you get there day one, and you realize, okay, well, everybody, if you walk in with a styrofoam cup—luckily I didn't do that—people, 'Oh, they don't care about the environment.' All of these little things, everything you do, people are watching. I remember this great story. One time, my wife calls me; she rarely calls me at meetings. So I was in a group of people in the conference room. I said, 'Excuse me a second, my wife normally doesn't call me. Let me just step out real quick.' So I stepped out, took the call, came back, thought nothing about it. Five years later, at a sales rewards club meeting, one of the top salespeople, one of the women there, came up to my wife and said, 'I was just about to resign from Red Hat five years ago because I was pregnant and I wasn't sure Red Hat would work. And I was in a meeting with your husband, and you called, and he stepped out to take the call. And I thought, wow, if the CEO believes that it's important enough that family comes first, this is something I want to be a part of.' She's wildly successful at Red Hat, but if I'd hit ignore, she wouldn't be there. So you don't realize those things. And then the flip side, after the Red Hat acquisition, I became president of IBM. So I'm number two in a massive company, and that was much less stressful because there's somebody else behind the curtain. There's somebody else behind you. And when there is no one else there, and the decisions that you make can affect thousands of people's lives, it's just different. I remember at the Red Hat Halloween party—the first version of Red Hat Linux came out on Halloween, so that's like our big holiday. Everybody brings up their kids, and we do trick-or-treating around the offices. And every year, it's a little bit stressful for me because I'm like, 'Look at all these kids running around. Their parents work at Red Hat,' thinking, 'Oh my god, all these people really rely on decisions that I'm making.' And so it is different to be number two versus number one. And the last thing I'll tell you, you read a lot of articles about these CEOs who become completely arrogant and just flame out because of hubris. They do stupid things. And a lot of those folks, I now look back on and think, look, there are two ways that some people deal with stress. One is you let it get to you and you burn out. The other is you lock it away and say, 'Well, I'm going to convince myself I am so right all the time and I'm all-knowing,' that you become that arrogant. I think a lot of people probably weren't that arrogant when they started, but it's a normal human reaction to just the level of stress you're under. It's either let it eat you up or to say, 'I'm going to surf above it.' And so to get the balance right, to stay humble but not be eaten up by that stress, is a really, really tough trick. And when I talk to other CEOs starting out, I tell them that it's like getting that middle model right, where you don't flame out because you just burn out, but you don't let hubris engulf you as a coping mechanism for all the stress. It's tough. You've got to think really hard about that.